la vida de un espiritu frustrado

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2010-01-02T12:52:32Z

My neurons have been blinded from the smoke of everyday situations. No amount of glasses or lasik has helped me focus. I truly feel fogged. Cant see far ahead and don’t know where or when to turn before I hit the wall, if there is one in front of me. I sit like a hung-over freshman at a Starbucks with my 6 dollar cup of coffee. Yet I don’t have the joy of the drunken night yesterday; just lack of sleep and headaches. I need a better GPS, or GRE.

well... thats life

2006-06-27T13:53:19Z

i finally understand all that gush and crap about kids being wise. i thought is was all BS till yesterday. my dad and fam are in PR visiting. so it means i get to see my sisters almost daily and i get lots of hugs from the cute 3 year old. they got here last tuesday and been here bout 8 days and leave sometime in july. when they got here my 3 year old sis (tati) tells me we left home in aiplane. and i thgought that my parents told her that but it turns out she made a sentence all by herself. but the highlinght and downpoint was yesterday. im guessing she figured out she isnt in indianapolis anymore considering that shes melting and everyone is speaking a language she dosent understand (spanish). while we were playing soccer she suddenly stops, she looks at me and she mumbles something.

tati- %&#&%
Tony- what you say tat?
tati-%^#$^%
Tony- tati i dont understand what your saying

what i did understand was that she was saying it with a sad tone and is was a question
then she asks " #^%^& gone?"
i still dont get it till my other sister says "heather shes asking about heather".
im suprised and scared because ever since i knew she was coming i knew she would ask me bout my ex and i dint know what to say or how she would react. and scared like never before i answer "yes tati heathers gone"
she looks into the distance and says "heather gone" then turns around grabs a big ball and says "ok. soccer ball?" i nod and she kikcs it and we continiou playing.
in one minute she understod something that it took me months to understand life goes on and even though you may be sad theres always a soccer ball to kick to forget about your worries and move on.
i love my sisters and i thank whoevers up ther for blessing me with them.

PS: allez france! win the damn game today and then go on and beat brazil!
not probable but possible. if france losses ... well vamos espa~na beat brazil!

gargahs sounds of frustration

2006-05-19T23:09:02Z

seriously am i that bad a person am i so evil and assholic that i deserve what i get to me ?

this chica born in NY but with Pr blood has screwed me over. she was a mets fan that should have tipied me off. she lead me on to the point of falling in love with her and she plain broke me and heres the kicker: how i find out im about to take a final im in the room and i look out the window as im taking my test and i see her holding hands with her again reunited boyfriend. so how the fuck am i supposed to concentrate after that! i mean she and i had been friends scince id say nov 13 2005 and there had always been this spark tween us but when i was with heather i didnt do shit and after heather and i ended when i needed a friend she got scared cause the poss of her and i became real. o cause she was in arelationship just as me only one that had and has less future that heather and i ever did. so she didnt talk to me later round march she started calling again and ilusioning me and giving me hopes only to say what at that time i knew she would im to scared to leave him even if im not happy. so that ended and we talked acoulple of times strictli as friends cause i had it in my mind it wasnt going to happen so i looked elsewhere. and when i beging to talk and start liking another girl this NY one calls me up to say i broke up with him and we start talking where we left off and i mean i know more about this girls life that i know bout my one. and after a couple of day saying things like when you meet my dad and we could go do this and do that and i want you to meet my fam and get my friends approval, i look out the window and find this out.

i seriously am not gonna date someone who is a mets fan ever again.
good thing about all this is i found out fore i fell so its easier to get over but i was falling so it still hurts

on other news i may be moving out of my house to my own place. and i finnaly have my final and i mean final major. ill become a red sox fan fore i change my major so woot!
love yall or whoever is reading this
thanks for caring

nechys_boy @ 2006-04-21T15:20:00

2006-04-21T19:43:12Z

i always wondered why i like listening to people talk. why no matter how much i dislike them or not care for them ill stop sit and listen. not only will i listen but if i can ill give advice. and why i always kept my mouth shut about it. no matter what they told me and no matter who it was. thats why im seriously thinking and taking my steps into Psychology as a carrer. and it wasnt till this week i realized it...
POWER
most humans spent thier life seeking power. some achive it others dont. and some crave it desperatly
i never thought about it but i realized i CRAVE it DESIRE it WANT it and it is my only reason for living
POWER
but not any power i crave the power of trust, the power of people. trust confianza. these are my drives in life. the power of having people trust you is greater beyond belief. ther is also another drive which surges from trust
friendships
you arent always friend with the people you trust and you dont always trust the people your friends with.
but can you imagine the security in life to have someone that you trust who is also your friend. im not always sucsesful but i do everything in my power to be this guy.

this goes out to everyone friends acuantances and even those of you who think im scum
i am someone that you can confide in and desaogarte. you can complain for hours and i will listen and try to help and if i cant at least make you laugh and feel better.
i love you all and i hope with time you could all learn to trust me.

nechys_boy @ 2006-03-31T16:49:00

2006-03-31T20:51:36Z

apparently people dont like me expresing my mind. SORRY FOR OPFFENDING ANYONE WASNT MY INTENTION TO HURT ANYONE! STOP HATING
anyways work sucks but i love it
and school sucks but i love it
and life is great so i love it
much love to every one

eternal sunshine of tonys mind

2006-03-24T14:44:21Z

"why do i seem to fall in love with any woman who pays the least bit of attention to me"
well hi non exsistent reader! how you doin? me ive been good i reacently got in touch with melissa thats new york i can finnally use her name!! she said shed been thinking a lot about me and another ex lately (not that way sick puppies) and i was honest too ive been thinking A LOT about my past and memories mostly natalias birth melissa and heather.
nati is my life and i would do anything for her. and i understood why melissa broke up with me when she did. i wont get into reasons but ive made peace with it she isnt the same girl i fell in love with shes turned into a young lady (wow that sounds corny) but its true. even if i wanted i couldnt go out with new york because shes doesnt exixt anymore and her remenants are: melissa someone im getting to know again and a frindship might flurish.
now heather i found out why i think about her her and it has absolutely nothing to do with her its about the closeness i felt about the trust i had. i dont miss her. i miss the feeling and i long for that feeling with someone heather well shes become a person to me and i dont care much for people. there are three kinds of humans in my life family, aquaintances, and people. family includes friends if i know your name you are my friend and id be sad if you left the world. othe people i say hi to and dont know your name are aquaintances i might be bummemd out but not linger in it to long. and there are people some i know names some i know their life story but they are still people and im apathetic towards them. now with some people thats temporary with othrs its permanent i dont know wich heather is but i hope its temporary. i feel just a little guilty that i have no feeling towards her anymore considering what a big part of my life she was. but know only time will tell
on oter news i am happy my cousin from florida is in town and i got to see my niece as greg would say "woot!" i meat this cute black girl i mean black girl sand shes like a little teddy bear. and this other chica has a blck belt in tae kwon do and super niceboth of them shorter than me wich i adore! and i met this TALL girl wich apparently has a liking to short men. and when i say tall i mean that my face is under her breasts and that is a huge turn off but shes real sweet and inocent. this other girl is 21 years old and has never had a boyfriend. o and i met a 28 year old that if i had lied about my age and said i was wath she thought i was 24 i might had a chance. me and my honesty. im meating a lot of people but nothing yet i am in no hurry to be with someone im concentrating on my work and studies but you never know! love most of yall tony

nechys_boy @ 2006-03-17T09:35:00

2006-03-17T13:40:19Z

i have never been so dissapointed in my life ever!!!
pr lost the world baseball classic an was eliminated by cuba WTFF
you might say its just a game no big dealbut no you are wrong i hate deddicating my time and efforts and monety and in the end feel like it was a waste of all three
i do that a LOT
i mean there isint a worse feeling than to have your heart broken and on wensday 30 men broke my heart
did that sound gay or what?
o and i met the nmost beautifull girl bar none i mean she would turn a gay guy straigt and a girl gay she is just breathtaking i mean im acctually gonna fail a class because i cant pay attention i spent the whole class joking with her and just admiring her beauty and the best part she isnt a bitch or easy! and "shes a dancer" (friends quote season 6 joeys new roomate) *im such a sad guy*
but anyways studing hard and working a lot with a dash of good times plus no money = college

its tuesday do you know where your rum is at?

2006-02-21T12:43:42Z

PUTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thats what people call her.i just say "hey man shit, so fuck it"
life has been good again for about a week now and music wrestleing school and some just a little bit of alcohol. and then a little more.
i went on a blind date this friday and it sucked! $60 on drinks and no #. what happened well...

It seems i have this incredible talent/gift that after five minutes talking with a girl i become their friend. you think "good" i say "no" . the thing is that i have no "get to know" time (period in which you ask out) and i immidatly go to the "friend zone" and become the guy friend they tal;k to about the guys they re dating. kind of like a straight gay friend. by the middle of the night she was opening up about there are no good guys out there and im in front of her looking like "HEY WHAT ABOUT ME"

so the nigjht wasd drinks and dancing drinks and dancing and buh bye. well if you read this you know how it goes.

dear heather

2006-01-26T20:38:46Z

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! well feels good to get that off my chest

well im single for the first time in nine months so yeah...
i guess unlike the other time this time it hurt A LOT because i knew it was over forever and that was the hardest. right now im decent bordring on meh. thge only time i truly feel bad are the nights. the thing ill miss the most is the loving her and no this has nothing to do with the body. its the its ten o clock here that means its 9 there so at any moment she will call. and then rememberingoh yeah she has jobs/choir, i wonder how the new teacher is dealing with them or i wonder how her girls are and whats their next activity. to wonder if her day went " ok, it was school" or if it was a bad day and wait for her to rant and listen and see if i could help and if i couldnt well at least hear her and be therefor her. ill even miss the "i'll call you back" and she didnt and ill always treasure the "i'll call you back" and she did. i will forever wonder how youstop loving someone from a nights sleep and want to throw out the window something in which a lot of time and energy was spent and which was better than heaven. anything i ever said or told her i meant mean and will forever be true.
this last sentence may be misconstrued as a glimps of hope of a reconciliation. it isnt many times i said ill do anything to make you happy and i mean it if being with me doesnt make you happy well thats why we are were we are. and no matter who i end up with.if i see you in may or if i end up never seeing you again you will always hold a special place in my heart.

missing home

2006-01-06T01:38:01Z

ever since new years ive been feling really homesick and i mean REALLY homesick. i miss the warm weather and noise. the people the music my doggie and i feel like that unless im entretained but i spent most of the week inside the house wich really deppreses me no matter how much i love my sisters and how happy they make me they arent the reason i came here and even my dad knows that its know he doesnt like heather but what really pisses him off and deppreses him is how i treat her. he knows that she is atop my priorities, and it makes him sad for me. but i really miss home not my mom but my home...

long time

2005-12-29T09:53:14Z

why cant i do anything right when i think i do the right thing then i regret it try to fix it messit up more leave it alone and starting to fell i should have kept my fucking mouth shut in the first place . the reason for my trip was to have my first xmas with a girlfriend first 9 months and first kiss on midnight on new years. well one out of three and barely . the reason for my trip is no longer here and i wish i could go back to pr now but i dont have the money to change the trip. i HATE uncertanty i FUCKING HATE IT WITH ALL MY FUCKING HEART MORE THAN I HATE BUSH THE SOX OR MY MOM COMBINED. i cant stand not knowing if someting is gonna happen or not AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK THIS!!!!!!! i cant express all the fucking tension i have .all the sadness and anger at myself. my heart's cracked and i cant stand this hearts are made to be whole or broken not cracked I HATE INDIANA and if i leave indiana sad or mad for whatever reason i vow never to visit this hell hole whrer i spent my most depressing and sad years of my life.

heather if you read this some of this has to do with you but most is bout me, myself and i

todavia te adoro y amo mas de lo que te puedo explicar.

just whe every thing is good ...

2005-11-19T03:33:14Z

just when you think everything is good and going great you get kicked in the nuts!!!

anyways... i went into a cave today and saw a LOT ok bats but two species in spesific. they both ate insects. and in the caves it was awesome!! i cant wait to do it again!!

i got my tocket to see heather. yes my fam is also in indy but EVERYBODY knows the reason i'm flying over there is for her. and i'm gonna be there for 31 days excluding my flight days. so ill get to see everyone (jordanne and kayle have the bacardi ready its party time!)

im actually meatting a lot of people now in myspace now that i changed my photo. wonder why? but most important are these two girls from fajardo thats bout i hour away from where i live. stella and roxana now i met stella first and then i met her best friend roxana. now roxana and i have so much shit in common its now even funny. and we have been talking a LOT. more than with heather (hint hint) but its nice to have new people that i can call friends and who will always be there for me (or so they say) roxana said that i have to be there for the birth of her first born!! now thats friendship. and for those people who even think that im rommantically involed with this girl just to say WRONG she has a boy and hes real cool.

that all for now

nechys_boy @ 2005-11-08T15:00:00

2005-11-08T18:52:03Z

Well I did fall into a depression but I’m out. That I can, I can. I met my prima (cousin) Wanda she is the first female blood relative that I have met who doesn’t have mental or emotional difficulties. This gives me hope. With my girl well we are still going lets see what the future has in store for us. With my mom I realized she is to old to change and I’m going to be stuck here for some time. So I have to adapt to the situation. Its gonna be hard but you do it cause you do it.

Every day I lose a little bit more faith in the human race. There aren’t a lot of good people left in this world. I think I’ve met some of them but sadly you never really know somebody. And it’s even harder when they don’t want anybody to know them. Honesty is at an all time low. Loyalty (faithfulness included) seems like a thing of the past given that the now ever popular excuse “ I’m sorry I cheated its just how I am” man has humanity gotten to the point that they cant assume FULL responsibilities for their actions and decisions? And it’s the same for guys as its for girls. You had a choice. “ oh it was a rush of passion and you know when you are in those situations you don’t think straight” BULLSHIT. First of all you can still say no and second if you think you cant say no the why be in that situation. Don’t bring the girl to your house. Don’t go to the guys house. Why the hell are you in a room alone with someone else at midnight when you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend. WTF oh and is it just me or has sex become a sport in this XXI century. “Oh it was just sex it didn’t mean any thing.” Shit. Communication is also nearly dead. If something is wrong TALK. Say whats on your mind. Don’t close up. That is what brings down friends, family and significant others. What about caring for others. And people arent even nice anymore. Whe you see someone in the morning say “good morning” at least they just pass people by as if they were in a hurry to go pee.

this tiny rant goes to EVERYBODY that reads this and all the people you know.
But as part of the minority (no Mexican jokes please) I just have to say good morning if it morning good evening if its evening and good night if its nighttime. Hope you all have a good day, week, and life . remember you are in control of everything that happens in your life. Don’t blame other things or PEOPLE.

me siento tan peque=o si no estas aqui

2005-11-02T13:23:13Z

if i cant stand uncertanty why am in it so much? why do people close up and dont tell me things. what the hell is wrong with us? why is there always something going on? why when people ask me " how are you guys?" i cant give a straight answer? is it just me or do you also feel like this?

"naci para sufrir por tu amor maldito, comenzo en la gloria hoy es un delito" should not be a phrase i should identify with. and i get mad at ME not you ME. ok? after yesterday i got extremle pissed at me because i ended up apologising for what i said when i shouldnt have to. i was just saying what was going through my mind. if it came out wrong and you took it another way, i shouldnt have to be apologizing for that. but i did. i dont know why but i did. and not every time but most of the times i say something and you misunderstand it because i cant express myself that well in my second language i end up apoligizing. and the thing is that i wil keep apoligizing dont know why but i will. if i had to take a wild guess i think its because i love you and i want to make sure you are fine, that you are happy. and if im not sure of that well im in uncertanty wich stresses me out beyond belief.

this is my rant, the emptying of my mind, my out pour.

and after it is all over know that i still love you and i wouldnt stand to live without you

nechys_boy @ 2005-10-28T09:59:00

2005-10-28T14:05:16Z

well this has been hands down the most stressful frustrating week in this year. yes including d day. and it had nothing to do with it. all the other times i've been down it has been for things that happen. this time it was about desicions. it was the "what if" factor. it was basically i have all the control to change my life. that i have the POWER to make the decitions that i WANT to make. but at the same time there are external forces pushing me to make decitions that i DONT wanna make. and i'm also a little scared of in a way myself. if i change a certain aspect in my life and it turns out to be a mistake i'm screwed cause i only have to blame myself. plus it would be delving into the unknown. i always tend to make rational well thought out decitions in life always considering the consecuenses be they good or bad. and go with the best logical decitions. i almost never go with what my heart wants. which sometimes might be illogical but could make me happier. not only now (for those thinking im only seeking imediate gratification) but illogical senseless decitions that would make me happy for the rest of my life. but since they arent safe and the consecujences arent predictable i tend to go with the safe way and forget about what i want.

i need help should i change my life and almost EVERY aspect of it without knowing whats going to happen, or just fake most of my happines (not all) for a safe well thought out road?

nechys_boy @ 2005-10-25T19:19:00

2005-10-25T23:11:52Z

if anybody reads this comment something that will make me laugh and happy for a few seconds seems like NOTHING can pick me up today and as a show of my frustration:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i should be doing my work

2005-10-24T20:46:39Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

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Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Mystical	\|\|	10%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|	16%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	44%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
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wow i'm bored

2005-10-18T21:32:24Z

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

true if i can seduce i dont know how to

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

to people who really know this it is no suprise

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

What Language Should You Learn?

huh! its the language i'm trying to learn

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, one moment heaven... the next moment hell.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 54% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing

Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

Your Birthdate: December 11

Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist.
You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force.
There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too.

You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental.
Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world.
You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

all true (i think)

la la la

2005-10-17T12:51:16Z

Leave your name and
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what band/song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

bleh

2005-10-14T19:54:27Z

mood: dorky
1. Name someone famous with the same birthday as you:
--- nikki sixx, rita moreno, rey mysterio and (sad) john kerry

2. Where was your first kiss?
---in a church

3. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
--- yes a car left it on blocks

4. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
--- never

5. Have you ever sang in front of a large number of people?
--- church choir when i was a kid

6.Whats the first thing looks-wise you notice about the opposite/same sex?
--- waist down and face

7.What really turns you on?
--- skirts and water

8.What do you usually order from starbucks?
--- venti caffe mocha

9. What is your biggest mistake:
--- i dont make mistakes

10. Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
--- yes

11. Say something totally random about you:
--- penis

12. What celebrity do people say you look like?
--- i dont know ask people

13. Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
--- sadly yes

14. Did you have braces?
--- no

15. Are you comfortable with your height?
--- yes

16. What is the most romantic thing someone of the opposite sex has done for you?
--- honestly nothing comes to mind

17. When do you know it's love?
--- when you start wondering if its love

18. Do you speak any other languages?.
--- spanish and a little french

19. Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
--- no i dont need one

20. What magazines do you read?
--- si, sporting news, mens health

21. Have you ever ridden in a limo?
--- yes to and from the airport

22. Has anyone you were really close with passed away?
--- not yet

23. Do you watch mtv?
--- sadly yes

24. What's something that really annoys you?
--- people who are way to friendly when you meet them

25. What's something you really like?
--- friends and friends

26. Do you like Michael Jackson?
--- no

27. Can you dance?
--- ask the people i danced with

28. What's the latest you have ever stayed up?
--- 52 hours

29. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
--- yes

30. Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
--- yes

31. Do you actually read these when other people fill them out?
--- yes

32.Would you like your friends to fill this out?
--- if anybody read mine yeah why not

1. male friend: sergio
2. female friend: heather
3. vacation: puerto rico
4. age:17
5. memory: mmonday april 18 2005

Worst
1. Hair style: afro
2. Day of the week: tuesday
3. Fear: atzhiemers
4. Memory: too many
5. Boyfriend or girlfriend: none

Lasts
1. Person you talked on the phone with: Sybel (my boss)
2. Kissed: chispa
3. Hugged: mom
4. Email: mlb.com
5: IM:nathan (a long time ago)

Firsts
1. serious bf or gf? melissa velez
2. Car: ...
3. First school: american school
4. Job: inter

Today
1. What are you doing now:this
2. Tonight: work
3. Wearing: black dress pants and white tight t-shirt
Tomorrow
1. Is: friday
2. Got: milk
3. Goal: live
5. Do you have work: yes

Favorite
1. Number: 9
2: Song: primer dia sin ti by enanitos verdes
3. Color: black
4. Season: summer
5. State: florida

Currently
1. Rather be: sleeping dreaming of you
2. Have a crush: nope'm in love
3. Talking to any one: myself
4. Mood: boerd

la vie

2005-10-13T19:54:56Z

On this day it is six months since heather and i became official. Now some people say (i will admit i was one of these, because i was alone) that its kind of sad when couples celebrat monthly anyversaries. But look at the real reason they do this. Most relationships are considered lucky if they reach the 3 month mark. So the couples have to celebrate everymoment they have together. That is the reason for the now routine monthly aniversaries. But with 6 months its diferent. considering that the number 6 same as the number 3 is a weird number. Sure it dosent carry the mistique of the #3 (holy trinity ect...) but six does kind of ring some importance in ones mind. maybe cause 6 is half a year, and in our short lives that rings some kind of importance. However to me six months is nothing to break open a bottle of champagne about. I am still happy that we got there but six months isnt my goal. I will have a cold bottle of good wine wating to be pooped open at our first aniversary. Now, people, dont get me wrong i will still be happy and celebrate every day i'm with her. Everyday that we are together (even when we are apart) i have more than enough reasons to celebrate because i'm lucky enough to be with her. But nothing will compare to the joy and happines i will feel when i reach that one year. heather te amo happy half year aniversary.

nechys_boy @ 2005-10-10T16:16:00

2005-10-10T20:14:52Z

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well now i feel better. no offense to all the female friends i have but what the fuck is wrong with yall? i will never understand yall.

Fact: divorced parents and lack of moneyare a real fucking headache.

Fiction: life is good when you are in love

Fact: life is defenatly better when you are in love

Fiction: chickens can pee

chula te amo, people i miss yall, send me money so i can get the fuck out of here

nechys_boy @ 2005-09-30T23:10:00

2005-10-01T04:45:32Z

como es la vida. just like todo i plan it goes upside down inside out its still good but another thing. For example you go in for a good baseball game and you end up watching a good football game. Its still good just not what you expect. Not what you went in for but still glad you went. Some thing i havent told anyone is that this is a life changing trip. Depends on how this trip goes descitions will be made that will not only impact me greatly but change people around me either for better or for worse. Carefull obserbation to detail. Plans are just sketches to be molded into a venus de milo or a guernica, into a beautiful priceless memory. Its not the changes that are important is how they come about. Its every comment made and word utterd taken into deep consideration. its putting in a balance the good the bad and the ugly and see which one goes down harder for that will be the lucky (or unlucky) winner.
this 3 day 4 night trip could be a major turning point in my life and it could go either way i could win an oscar or have a shot right through me while nobody helps my body while its lying desangrandome por mis creencias

nechys_boy @ 2005-09-29T23:15:00

2005-09-30T04:25:12Z

well im here in indy and its ok wating to see how the weekend goes. saw the love of my life today. happier than a cow with a vegetarian. well not much else. bye

nechys_boy @ 2005-09-23T16:25:00

2005-09-23T20:50:25Z

well i am on the verge of insanity. as my brief return comes closer i get more anxious nervous and worried. and there is nothing i can do to well, educe the tension. plus everyonce in a while scary thoughts/memories/possible futures pop into my head and i deal with them my best but sometimes i think it will never happen and if it doesnt happen then whats the point of it all? other times i think that it did happen. and everything is ok and then there are the other thoughts if it did happen why then do i feel this way maybe i dont anymore. beacause it happend and it was the only way to do it. the only thing keeping me grounded is my luna. ella es la voz de la razon en esta vida loca los cuales los sentimientos nos complican mas todos los segundos del dia. call me crazy but it is my talks with the moon which help me get through life. but luna keeps asking me questions that i have been afraid to answer since May and they keep coming and piling up.

where are you going?

are you satisfied?

if you are or arent could you be better?

in what way?

is it to late to change your paths?

is it to late to change you?

if it isnt should you change your descitions?

if it is to late how are yougonna deal with it?

Just because you love something does it mean you should hold one and fight and gain every bit of love you get in return, or should love be something that nace,that comes out?

isnt love something that is given without expecting anything in return?

why are you working so hard?

are you suposed to be working?

in a relationship should you struggle to remaing together?

do you force yourself through or do you sit and enjoy the memories?

when do you know when to let go?

do you ever have to let go?

is it possible it is neessary to let go even when you dont want to?

and other questions of this matter arise. and i chosse not to examine them. i chosse to ignore maybe beacuse i'm afraid of the outcome, of the answers. so i go on doing my thing and trying to enjoy every second of life and everything in it. but one day when i get enough courage... or some courage i will face the questions posted before me and accept the outcome however life chainging it may be.

only one thing is sure in this life yankees rule all. praise lou, babe, lefty, joe dee, mick, yogi, bernie, jeter, and mo.